Monday, April 6, 2020 –
We’re all really trying to hold it together as best we can, but it is getting harder to just breathe. For me, I cannot seem to get out of the most recent funk. Everything feels like nails on a chalkboard or arm on a cheese grater. Ick!
I find myself perturbed at the oddest things, chastise myself for letting anger drive the bus, then find myself back at square one perturbed by even sillier things. And it is not just anger. I’m also getting utterly distracted by the weirdest things and wanting to “fix” them, knowing full-well that it is not my thing to fix or even my business to care about.
I’d like to think there is some profound reason the little things are getting to me, but I know that it is because the world is upside down and my mind is just trying to set one, tiny thing right…even if that something isn’t mine to set right.
Ahem, Dan, I’m looking at your cars right now that are in the wrong order on your driveway!!
The real point is that I know my life is fine. I have food and toilet paper. I have a roof and central A/C. My life is wonderful, and for all of that I am truly thankful!
However, I am starting to crack. I can admit it, and I really hate the feeling of being not in control. Harumph! I guess I really am human.
Saint Jerome, pray for us!
